Category: Philosophy

Why the darkside?

I’ve had many either ask me this bluntly or they belittle my need to rage out or don’t understand how I can hold views that are so on fire & upsetting? And its something I’ve questioned myself many times and personally I feel the more darkness that I can accept within myself? That equals to the more awake & conscious I am of the darkness that I express, putting into the world whether unconscious or not! 

Many of you dont understand that all of us have a dark side that we are each responsible for. But, and yes, because of Christianity, you dont see it that way even if you arent necessarily a Christian. The views of Christianity have a large hold upon humanity regardless of how much you’re aware or not. Which is why we should always be looking at ourselves. 

Why? So that we can grow more aware of ourselves now, catch up with our work, take responsibility, step up to the plate, and realize that we create most of the physical world. The Gods, Goddesses, and encompassing spirits mirror back to us our soul. Which is why many of us are so damned confused when looking in the mirror. Because we are taught to not find value within ourselves! 

So in essence while many might hear something negative, something hard to swallow or have on your shoulders everyday. But actually I”m excercising more faith in you, in me, and in our ability to wake up & cause change in ourselves & the environrment more so than any other person may ever in your whole entire life! 

Yes I speak of darkness, I speak of thingyou were taught to fear, I speak of accepting truths, and yes its hard! Its hard as fuck! I wont even lie! But it FEELS good to accept the truth. To do what everyone is so afraid to do. Simply because their teacher told them not to do this or to do that. Don’t doubt what youve heard. 

I’ve seen more than my share of proof that the Bible was written to scare you. To steal from you & scare you. Because what better what to confuse the common people by confusing them about whether or not they have a soul, or if it will go to heaven or hell. And the very fact that witchcraft was thrown to the way side while everyone acts like Christianity is the most hated? Actually that isn’t true. It’s socially accepted to hate christianity, I”ll give you that. Yes. But when do you ever hear what people think of witchcraft? The only ones who speak publicly of witchcraft are Christians

Why? Because they were taught to take on the blame for the burning times. This was the governments way of causing a bluring line and a confusion. Because they weren’t Christians when the religion was formed. It was used to convert people so that they knew what the people believed. They knew what mentality they were dealing with because a pagan or heathen mind is far too free & can’t be controlled. 

A pagan hugged trees and talked to planets… a pagan knows better than to believe a human. Pagans knew and saw the truth. The witches saw what happened and they vowed to remain silent for self preserver. While I understand that then. It is time to come out of the shadows now! If you feel so called to! 

Accept the term “devil worshiper” or “satanist” as that is what we will always be in their eyes. And in truth it isn’t any different! If you are a pagan or a witch that judgemes Satanism then you haven’t faced up to the truth of how wrong that is when you are merely misunderstanding it. Allowing your own ignorant fear get in the way. Satanists & Witches should be on the same side. 

Satanism, imo is truly a rebellion against the Government. The rules of the Government. The games and political parties of the government. Not all religions are the same. Not all of them were created by power hungry politicians. Any religion that is for the development of the self, respects the planets, and the unknown is a path that all of us should feel inclined towards. 

It isn’t your job to judge someone who believes in the Gods, or the one who lacks the fatith in a God. So long as they aren’t judgeing you. And most of both of these sides lack the judgement. But it must end. The seperation & the very judgement was forced on you. It isn’t truly a part of who you are! The government attempts to control what you love what you hate, what you feel and think. So they will always win or they will send you to the crazy house! 

Can you believe that the very symptom “self important” or “self love” is looked at as a narcissistic trait? While yes an imbalanced view, I can see. But since when is it wrong or bad to love one self or to see importance in one self? This is why there is so much jealousy in the world and why people who have a low self esteem talk trash of those that have confidence and make them out to be some kind of arrogant dickhead. Not always so! 

This is because the darkness of humanity is running always and always extroverted. It is a rare person where that darkness is looking inward instead of outward. I am a prime example of people hating on me no matter what I”ve done. I’ve been hated for speaking my mind, calling someone out, even nicely and with tact, I”ve been hated for expecting someone to live up to their own word! IF you do shit like this, this isnt right. Youre word is all you have. IF you’re gonna get pissed at someone else for being sad because you didn’t relieved? You are the equivalent to a five year old. 

Why the horror movies? To gain understanding from dark art in order to become comfortable with what we fear. It is a study. A way to understand, to prepare. To accept all that goes wrong in the world, but at the same time? We mustn’t accept it to the point where we are no longer inspired to cause change! That is when youre dead. The point isn’t to accept no change. The point is to accept the opposition. The darkness that will always confront you, do its thing, and make you hate it. You dont need to forgive it. You need to accept it exists, accept that it happens, but understand why it happens, know that there are many different reasons to that why… and then? Do what you can to cause evolution in this area. Because the truth of the matter is, whatever darkness that happened to you? It doesn’t mean you commuted the same act in the past but it does mean that there was some kind of an agreement or arrangement that was made that this darkness would happen so to be an alarm to awaken us to a certain level so that we will fulfill our soul mission. 

Darkness isn’t the enemy. Darkness is the closest ally we can relate to you simply in different ways. But if I can understand youre darkness and you can understand mine… however not expect the other to accept it. But work to evolve the darkness… that the point! OR else we will have to experience the same things again and again until its faced, accepted, integrated and then used as fuel to cause change in human evolution! 

Thats the point! Its to know that we are very flawed. Look at those flaws. See them. Dont deny them. Even if you are unsure what to do with them, just see them. And youre guidance will come. Keep an open mind and an open heart. Some things that may seem dark, maybe simply your perceptive but its something that couldn’t be changed and needed to happen in the moment or in that single lifetime. Such as deaths, etc. 

IN order to understand we can cause change, we must understand that there are other things that cannot be changed. 

The darkside, the anger, the pain, the uncomfortable things that we experience and feel must be not only faced, but integrated, and accepted as a part of ourselves. The fact that many are too eager to forget explains the stagnant spiritual state we are in. We have stopped the willingness to learn. 

This is why Jesus, while I believe he existed to some degree but his tale was twisted. One single persons perspective, not mine, not his, not yours is the only one to learn from or follow. Plus he came at a different time, we also dont know if there may have been some other reason for his existence, such as a reminder of this very darkness that humanity believes they have covered up well. 

Why do you think people eagerly fall to their knees when they sense the fierceness of Jesus? Guilty conscious. Jesus would never ask anyone to turn their entire lives upside down unless they were causing unneeded destructive energy that was harmful. And if that soul had a specific plan with the energy of Jesus. 

We must look at the subconscious of humanity as a large pool of concepts, thoughts, and beliefs. Wherever there is fear or corruption we must come back to that concept and face it. Let it teach us. So we understand all sides of it that we are meant to. However we always have a choice but we are taught we have no spiritual choice we wont know a limit and we will go overboard and assume the wrong things while we do such. For example a reborn christian, perhaps they are going back to a point in their life where we denied christianity without proper reason but just because someone told them to, therefore his soul neeeded to go back to that point whether in the same lifetime or another, they see a vision of Jesus, the vision is real but his translation is colored by his own soul, the issues, the good, bad, ugly, how much suffering does he owe this energy? what he involved with the killing of jesus or the corruption? whatever! it can be many things and not just relating to that. 

This is all something i’ve learned from the Akashic REcords. Ultimately all things are a concept, when everything is seen as a library with every souls past, present, and future within it. Everything must be seen as a concept then, and energy being given and taken as polarities in order to keep order and a balance.

So again, this is why its important to first see the path as dark, seek for dark and misunderstood first. Seek why someone is telling you that someone or something is evil. Because if you believe that at the drop of a hat? Imagine what else you are listening to that has no root in truth at all and youre walking around with someone elses eyes & judgement running! You’ve wasted your whole life if youre doing that! 

Yes, my goddess Hekate has me see many things from her perspective but they are all things that I would have already known one way or another if I had held on to the believes that I have from lifetime to lifetime. Instead we are being inserted by our real memories when we awaken, one at a time, it takes time because we can’t comprehend more than we are able to in the moment. 

The things I’ve seen through Hekates eyes are really my own old eyes, but she gave it a boost, i saw past lives, i saw past lives as  a with, i saw the conversion to Christianity, i saw the divorce between humanity and nature. I saw many things that i dont doubt that has happened and are by far more sensible than anything you will read in the bible. 

Yes it is difficult to walk the path of  Satanist. I believe it is the hardest path to walk. Because there isn’t any entity even though there are many that are willing to teach you & support you. But there aren’t any that are going to save you from anything. It takes a love for truth, a love for oneself, and a faith in oneself that many lack but it is due to the very fact that we have been taught to stay way from this or else you will find doom & gloom.

I wish I could jump into the bodies of all of you people whom are afraid and just say, “Its all doom & gloom regardless”. Youre life isn’t better than me because you have chosen to ignore things. In fact spiritually speaking, and this can be proven in the very fact that humanity hasn’t had a physical evolutionary growth spurt in a long time now, in fact things are being released to the common people as news when the stuff is probably old or was released before but nobody remembers because everyone is so focused on what they feed you. 

It isn’t an insult or a negative thing to recognize your ignorance. That shows you how much you have to learn, it shows you how behind we are, and that causes you to ask questions about the people running this whole thing. How much do they know? How much are they hiding? I will tell you they aren’t that much smarter than you. They just know more information but without a spiritual foundation that is of raw and uncorrupted truth? They wont go far. This keeps us stagnant and slows us down… to give us to time to rethink things. 

The more stubborn you are though, the more you are causing yourself uneeded strain. And youre racking up more bullshit. Until these things are seen and integrated youre always going to feel like a victim. And most people seem to rather be just that because its easier to believe you have no choice. 

We always have a choice. WE dont have complete control but we do have a choice. The forces of the universe would never allow you to not chose truth. If something keep budding its head in your life? Particularly of a dark nature? It isn’t a sign that you need to call Jesus. For the love of Dionysus leave that guy alone! 

Its a sign to accept the calling to take responsibility for yourself. Think for yourself. Ask the universe questions. It will answer. Stop assuming you know it all when you dont know anything. Anton Lavey was wrong when he said “too bad stupidity isn’t painful” it is painful. Because we always see everything, but a part of us will deny until its forced to see the truth. Sometimes this takes centuries of pain. And not only that but if youre in pain, youre causing someone else pain. Its true. If you aren’t trying then youre hurting other people too. 

Thats why…. the darkside is the only side. You must only see it. 

Bullshit like; “Manifest your dream job or dream life!”

Huh? Why? Do you even realize the mental health of humanity at the moment?


For the love of Hades & the Heavens! I’m getting Royally irritated at these people who promote this concept! This isn’t based in any kind of practical concept!

First of all the dream life of anyone is extremely flawed & is a large presumptuous idea of your passion in life turned into a business more often than not!

And if it’s something else, even so, no life comes without the downside!

What needs to be promoted or sold to people for free or low price is how to make room for every concept within the mind therefore you are always content regardless of happy or sad.

Know your passions so you never state you’re bored. Because saying your bored in this universe is one of the most dumbest things ever.

If youre bored you depend on others for enjoyable mood shifts & creative juices. Stop it.

You lack imagination is youre bored. You lack proper knowledge of yourself & your environment if you at all believe yourself and surroundings are mediocre.

Even in the worst situation, for example, homeless, one can be enlightened. One doesn’t need a dream job to be happy. Humanity needs to bring abundance within.

Manifestation of our inner world needs to take place before change of our outer world can. And before you begin spouting off ignorant direction less magick everywhere.

Learn what reality is instead of focusing on any concern or words that has the words dream job or dream life within thr phrase!

Humanity has enough issues to own up to and deal eith before this kind manifestation is claimed to be some kind of birth right. It isn’t. It is earned.
But first there are lessons, and sacrifice to experience. Or else how could anyone enjoy the dream job or dream life prior to learning?

Most of humanity is truly confused about what they even want & much more about how to even attain it especially on a magickal level.

My opinion? More important? Spiritual values grounded into the physical. Seeking contact from the dead & the planets.

Those are the first goals. Knowledge of environment comes first. The order of how to attain more than what you have on a mundane level comes much much later!

Give it a rest. Gain wealth of knowledge.

Violets Guest Post for Venus Satanist

This is the original source material for the guest post that will appear on the website run by Occultist–Venus Satanas! I emailed this to her & told her she could edit or cut what she wanted so long as she kept the flame in it as well as the foundation! 

But what you will read below is my view of what Hekatean Satanism is as a whole! This path is very unknown & not of the majority so I feel I have much freedom to add more contour that I feel is best! According to Hekate & Lucifer themselves as well as myself! 

IF anyone is interested in learning more or having a one on one session relating to this topic please feel free to email me! 

I will update all of you & let you know when my post has been published on the website!!

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Born to be free (July 4th)

July 4th.

Such a strange holiday. Celebrating an illusion of freedom that shouldn’t have had to have been fought for. Freedom is a birth right. It’s natural. Freedom cannot be given. It can only be realized within.

Its also strange since we still live in a day & age where slavery mentality is very real & still exists. Even within the minds of people whom may not realize it.

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Who is Baphomet?



Alot has been said about the Baphomet figure. I will touch on some information that speak of some of the first known sources & origins of the figure. But I do have some things to add as well as my own personal experience of the entity him and herself!




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Negative or Positive?

An extremely common question! And has been for a very long time! Either there are those that seek for happiness or they are filled with thoughts of negativity to the point that they cannot experience anything else because they are convinced that life is supposed to give them happiness amongst many other ideas! 

I’ve had many people ask me this question or they tell me that they wish they were as “advanced” as I am or they say something else that basically discredits them and is every bit of the reason why they aren’t experiencing happiness in this said moment! 

Happiness isn’t rocket science. It isn’t a reward neither. Anyone can feel happiness. Your status in life doesn’t matter. What you do for work doesn’t matter when it comes to happiness. Who you are with will not give nor should take away your happiness. 

Happiness is an inside job! 

Am I saying that our life experiences shouldn’t effect our emotions? Not at all! But I am saying that what happens to us whether negative or positive doesn’t have to be the reason to why we should or should allow ourselves to feel happiness. 

Our experiences aren’t necessarily meant to even work that way. That isn’t the reason for them. Our reason for existence isn’t to be happy, positive nor negative. Our reason is to learn. To learn everything! This includes both negative and positive. To be both the bad guy and the good guy. To destroy as well as to create. To become more of who we are destined to become. 

That is our reason for being here. However there is a way to always feel positivity or happiness no matter what it is you are experiencing! It is possible to feel a natural joy even during your darkest moment! 

There are steps one must take in order to understand & experience this as clearly as possible! It takes a dedication towards changing your thoughts, it takes a decision made to forget about what you think is right or wrong or the rules of how to have a successful life, etc. Because to be blatantly honest that is mostly the very reason to why so many are depressed and unable to find themselves out of the despair because they take their standards as cold hard truths, they expects others to be like them, which sets up high expectations that shouldn’t exist, they live their lives with expectations that everyone should be a certain way and most of the time this certain way isn’t truly the truth of the nature of the soul of the person who set up the rules to begin with. 

They’ve just taken on these rules, they’ve conformed, and out of resentment for the very fact that they feel that they had to change in order to be accepted because they thought that was the key to success or happiness yet it turns out, sorry charlie, that wasn’t true. So they walk around with a dark cloud over the head and judge every person who walks by by these same standards and if the person doesn’t fit these standards they feel less alone within their own judgements! 

And if a person like this ever actually finds someone who fits these standards that aren’t theirs to begin with—its all a figment of their own imagination anyways! Because the human mind has no business in comparing their life to another humans life particularly in a way that inspires feelings of envy, jealousy, or judgement & hatred and resentment. These feelings are a product of believing in untrue concepts. 

For example, when your stomach hurts or if you’re in pain, this is your body’s way of signalling that there is something wrong going on within the body and you need healing. Its the very same way when you feel negative. It doesn’t necessarily mean that you are a horrible person or stupid nor does it mean you’re intelligent either if you can’t find happiness! 


As I’ve seen humanity find every reason beneath the sun to remain unhappy, even pride themselves for it, say that it means your intelligent. Which okay sure, that is true if it means you’ve seen through corruption and you are now experiencing the truth. But like the saying goes… the truth will set you free yet first it will piss you off! Don’t allow anything not even truth control how you feel. How you feel shouldn’t be a result or an effect from something else. It should be what controls your actions therefore you chose your mood or outlook first, then comes how you interact with the world. 


If the world responds in ways that are negative? There are a number of reasons for that! If you truly believe you shouldn’t ever be stressed then youre lying to yourself. And that is more often than not the very reason to why people are stressed out. They think they shouldn’t have to deal with obstacles or their emotional realm is reacting to the obstacles as if its negative. This is what causes many more of your problems! This is what sets up your entire outlook and mood if you look at obstacles in this manner.  

Your moods aren’t there to dictate others, nor are they an effect. You chose to feel the way you do, to see things the way you do. Yes, many times it feels as if its out of your control. But just like everything else, you can learn to change that perspective! 

How do we change our perspectives? Particularly when it comes to desiring to see things as they truly are? Surrender. Let go of everything you think you know. Admit that much of your problems are the very fact that you are lost, feel out of control, unsure of what to believe, self doubt, self pity, allowing things to control your own inner world, etc. 

First yes its true, some things will never change. 

But those things that never change? Do not need you to be involved. Because they are in control. So what does it matter? Allow those things that don’t change or cant change to be what they are. And respect its will. 

By respecting the will of the unchangeable, you then let go of resentment and allow something else to take over, respect, and silence to allow things that you don’t understand or may not like but need to allow their presence to be as it is because these things are here. You aren’t needed in this realm of the unchangeable. 

After we see this and accept it, then we can become cozy in a silence observing state of everything. Your thoughts, your feelings, your actions, and all else. Just stop being the narrator of your life. And begin living in a way that feels more like you are simply here to be present, to watch your mental realm and emotional realm go through its twists and turns as if its a script or movie you are watching that occasionally you lose yourself within but then you also remember that you aren’t any of that. Not really. 

Your true self is the being whom is here to enable all of these things to be. The thoughts, the feelings, the bad, the good and ugly… are all details. They aren’t what makes life what it is. They are merely aspects of life. They all are born from truth but aren’t truth themselves. 

Dont mistake your inner world for truth, personal experience isn’t truth it comes from truth, but it isn’t the truth itself. Because there is always more to know. You will never find the limit of knowing. Arrogance, entitlement, believing that you’re innocent versus bad, or vice versa, this is living in a world called duality. And as long as we live in this world… there will always be a good day and a bad day. 

The truth is absent all of these things, that is heaven, nirvana, source, or the absolute whatever you wanna call it. But words, objects, yes, no, sad, happy, etc…. 

The changeable changes… the unchangeable doesn’t. If we can learn to see these “two” things as a presence of their right.. then what else is there to do except to watch and learn? 

Don’t believe me? Then consider my experience and see for yourself. Decide that youre going to spend the entire day not having any judgements and see what the results are. Attempt to live life from a more quiet place. A place of stillness. A place where everything arises from source then returns continously effortless everyday. And we are simply here to witness it. 

I assure you, you will begin to find more gratitude, less expectation, less self pity, and much more of a space and oppurtunity to find peace and joy even during your darkest hour! 

Because once its seen that even on your worse day, what you experienced was simply a result of the words you chose to believe in that day no matter the game of true or false, you realize that life as a whole is a mere story. Even when you feel depressed, once you awaken, you will see through that depression. Does that mean you will never be depressed again? 

Of course not, but life becomes less about YOU. And more about the all and how everyone is in this together. And every move, thought, action, etc you make or take or decide to carry through… this is law in the world of form, the world of thought, and story, and it will have an effect, and you will receive the repercussions, because everything in this life is a mirror, what you put out you receive, it doesn’t matter if you don’t understand it. 

In fact if you don’t understand it, you will suffer more. Many believe that being stupid isn’t painful, that ignorance is bliss. This isn’t true. It takes a smart, aware, in control and conscious person to be happy especially in a world that is so corrupted and constantly trying to change you into someone you’re not. 

People need to realize there are many different facets in this life. IT’s all a different side of the dimensional reality we live in. But it can indeed be seen through! 

Be happy is a choice. If its what you want, you will experience it no matter what. No excuses, and nothing will get in the way of that. That isn’t to say you should always be happy—I’m simply offering something to ponder upon. 

If this doesn’t urge you to surrender your fight… then you’re still attached to your suffering. 

To know things, we must open up, accept our feelings, understand our feelings, but know that what we feel is a product of ignorance. Its a product of believing the world should be another way. It has nothing to do with true or false. Its about resistance, rejection, but also healing, love and light. 

If we are upset, generally, its because we don’t know why something is happening or we don’t understand why so and so would do whatever. Or why cant the world be this way. And while many of our claims, complaints may have truth or corruption to them—in the end? What truly matters is Are we really seeing truth? 

If we are, are we handling it in a balanced way?? Do we really know how to handle things? Do we truly know anything at all? Isn’t most of our thoughts just a guessing game? If we don’t know much, then shouldn’t that mean we shouldn’t assume so much? 

If you cannot figure out how to be happy, then stop trying so hard. Give up the fight. Let yourself be the dumb ass that maybe you’re telling yourself that you are. lol Then what? Challenge everything in your head is my point. Try it all on. the negative, the positive. and ask yourself, “and then what?” 

In the end it doesn’t matter. This experiment shows you’re always in control of how you feel. You just pretend to not have control. But because humanity is so confused and corrupted the truth is harder to find. Well that just means we are being challenged even harder! 

I say bring it! Don’t fear what could or can or has or will happen. Nothing ever truly ends. Have you not worked it out yet? 

And just so you know none of this is meant as a judgement! I learned this the hard way! I was a girl whom in her young age of 21 wanted to commit suicide and actually went to a crazy house for that very thing! I am NOT perfect. I have many flaws. But I can genuinely say that I am happy and sure much of it is based off of certain aspects of my life, but it is also just as much based on learning how to think differently! Am I who I thought I was be when I was 13 years old? Not at all! 

So I am not judging any of you! Simply proposing questions!