I look into your hand mirror. frozen stare as a tear fell from one, melting into my heart. Hell cries fo help. Biblically mistranslated.
Demons claw hungrily at my love which planted as seeds into soil outside your back door.
I embraced my own; you enslaved my pride. Activate illusion; transforming self vanity. My guilt freshing your vein by the old syringe. A gift given to me from an old enemy.
Medicinal poison flushing your system. Raped corruption. Cardiac arrested long ago. Now beating once again.
I worship the abuser. One whom defiles. The enemy.
The Face of Christianity.
Over the past few years I’ve noticed the face of Christianity changing some which has influenced me on a profound level, truly.
It is because of this positivity that has moved me closer towards surrendering to Christ & allowing him to take hold and mold onto who I’m destined to be.
Anyone whom knows me knows how resistant I was towards the Christianity movement. It began to form when I was young becauseof negative influence from the church & Christian friends & family.
I was bribed by grandfather to be baptised at 8 years old. My mother was atheist and didn’t talk about God. I was unfairly criticised by my best friend because of certain things I was into the church told her to. She had me go to church because I was a big fan of Marilyn Manson at 15. Everyone there forced me to sit still as they put their hands on, speaking in tongues then so called excorcised the demons out of me. When I hadn’t gotten into anything harmful at that point.
I just loved a rockstar. Whom I saw as needed to be heard and understood. But the church said so many mean things about him without any solid truth to back it up.
Rockstars have and do save many peoples lives.
I had a fucked up view of this christianity ever since. I stayed away from it and mocked it. However I got into satanism about 12 years ago. I’ve been through many twist and turns. Which ultimately led me here now.
This post however is focused on the very fact that the face of Christianity needs to continue it’s alterations. No one will open up to it if people are forcing others to be excorcized of their demons, judged harshly, or told they need to change in some way for God.
What’s needed has been stated. And done. The heart of another is Gods business. How one walks with God is ultimately between God & that person.
God will never tell you to give precise directions in expressing judgement towards another. The job of a Christian is to practice seeing Jesus Christ’s grace, love, and wisdom & learn how to uniquely express that in ones own way towards all else. Allow Christ to live through you touching the lives of others.
By this example it gives people the truth on many levels. It shows how God works through you as an individual. God wants us to understand and know him.
God is much different than much of man has portrayed him. Due to mistranslation, scapegoating, projecting, gaslighting, and more reasons.
If God says to one that they should express their christianity in a way that may be less known, misunderstood or even contraversial then it is what it is. Maybe your idea of what a Christian is shouldn’t be taken so seriously as you think. Or maybe you’re not being honest about your own version of Christianity.
If you’re struggling with what Christianity or the Bible means and are saying other ways are wrong, this could be a trap. Doesnt mean it is. But over analyzing this meaning particularly for others without asking God directly without the translation of the Bible, and asking only of direction for your own path… This means you could be stuck in a world of needing to be right.
If you need to be right, you think you might be wrong.
Im a Christian witch. If you need more definition of what that means, read this. But you’re disagreement towards path is wrong. You don’t understand my heart, nor my background.
The enemy influences us all no matter our walk with God. And realizing that just because I renounce much of my prior practices & just because I worship Jesus Christ first doesn’t mean I don’t still respect the Goddess. It doesn’t mean I’ve forgotten the Earth &her sacrifices.
I’m completely permitted to hold a spot we in my heart towards the past, towards nature spirits, other lesser gods, Goddesses, and even Satan & Lucifer himself!
I understand these beings and energies in ways that many will never. Because of my past. Just because you walk with God in a specific way that doesnt mean that it pertains to me. Do not preach your understanding of God, JC or the Bible to others. Only preach the facts.
Jesus Christ is the Lord, the king and savior. He died for our sins. And he must be know, accepted and seen in the human heart in order to be saved spiritually.
Beyond that? Speak of all else as your understanding. Because our understanding is flawed. Question your underatanding of the Bible. Not the Bible, and not the testimony of others.
There are other aspects to my story, their story, and God’s story.
Redefine the church & change the face of Christianity.
What makes my path Christian? And What makes it Witchy or Pagan?
First & Foremost Jesus Christ is my Lord & Savior. He isn’t an ascended master as I’ve seen many Christian Witches believe him to be. The teachings of Christ are above & beyond all others. And these teachings speak to the individuals heart of all whom reach out for his guidance & light! In this way I worship no other God.
However I recognize The Trinity. I show respect towards Virgin Mary & the Goddess Hekate. (Which is where my witch roots come in)
In the past I was polytheistic, I can see that there is the influence from other so called deities or demons (daimons) however one would look at them. They have both good & bad attributes to them as I will discuss at a later time.
What is witchy about me? My respect towards Hekate. My respect towards the Underworld & magick. My respect towards those before me. My ancestors & the lives that were lost during religious wars. Particularly any women whether truly a witch or not.
The Goddess isnt forgotten. God wouldn’t and couldn’t.
But I understand why he did as he did when Jesus was born, crucified and ressurected. As I will deeply discuss my ideas at a later time.
Do I believe in astrology? I believe it’s both true and false. Do I believe it has more advantage than having a relationship with Christ? I believe that the spirits of the planets whom converse with humanity relating to Astrology can offer very flashy words and stroke the ego but the end result is the pushing of belief in evolution.
And I no longer see truth in evolution. If evolution was true then humanity would be much further in the evolutionary stages than we are. It’s illusion. To keep a false belief in some kind of race to an imaginary finish line that a human mind has made up.
Only God can decide evolution. What, where and how. Humanity can only chose to follow suit or rebel. Humanity cannot create a bladeof grass let alone be stable to make up evolutionary milestones. Lol
So, if astrology is working for you? Cool. But if it becomes repetitive & unfruitful? Rethink your source of information. Why bypass Christ whom is clear, grounded and without this mystical layer of magick all-over him as the others do because of the magick they are selling you–to listen to the voices of the planets whom give truthfully generalizations.
Humans, all of us, are much more similar than we tend to want to admit. Astrology is over the top when you can go straight to source, through JC.
Do I use tarot or oracle cards? I don’t use Tarot anymore, but I wi use some Oracle cards. I also trust the Akashic Tarot. The Akashic records told me one thing two years ago;Jesus Christ was to be accepted by all of humanity in order to gain soul regeneration. (So to speak)
I was told this before my conversion.
Some Oracle cards are actually fine but it depends on the type and where the information is coming from. And this isn’t okay with every person who considers themselves a Christian. Because it’s not for you.
At the same time, that doesn’t mean that oracle cards should be depended on for truth but to put something or someone to the test.
There is no higher way to find truth than to ask Christ. The only way cards & all witchcraft,new age supplies can cause issues is if you fear them, which means you believe in them.
Demons and spirits can influence you with and without these “doorways” in your home.
And depends on your mind, the spirits or demons, the reasons for the haunting, and method of oppression.
Temptation comes in all shapes and sizes. Not just these shapes.
Just because I converted & saw truth doesn’t mean I won’t ever be effected by darkness again or make bad decisions.
Remember this is an already. Darkness will remain. But asking Him to shine the light will begin true change within oneself.
Will I ever speak to passed on loved ones? Depends on the situation and person. Cast spells? Not anymore. Channeling? Not purposefully.
I suppose the way the witch part still applies is that I am not running from the demons, spirits or passed on loved ones. I have seen too much. I know that there is danger, corruption, and what not within these things. But it doesn’t mean there isn’t a reason for the situation.
Im not completely renouncing my practices before my conversion. I may be putting down certain things & I have dropped my dependence on certain practices to do what JC can do.
But I AM completely renouncing my satanic practices & I am letting go of Satan, Lucifer as a main deity that I follow as I was before.
However that doesn’t mean I don’t understand his role in this life for both better & worse. He truly does teach the knowldge of good & evil. Which is the same as seeing our difficult times as dark gifts once we rise above them.
Satan & Sin doesn’t need to be hated. That is a trap. It needs to be seen through, understood, and accepted as a part of darkness. But also a partof darkness that always has the opportunity to be forgiven or redeemed when sincerely sought after.
Human anger & hate never amounts to anything. We should never take it upon ourselves to believe that we understand something to it’s fullest amount that hatred from our hearts is what’s warranted. I’ve never seen hatred nor anger amount to anything for me. And I’ve explored many things. Yes I still feel it. But it’s not my responsibility to keep it with me. It’s a tool to use to protect me if needed. But held on for longer than a few moments it becomes a weapon.
I’ve always found that even in the darkest of situations, how it unfolds depends largely on how you interact with the situation itself. Life for everyone is complicated, full of darkness and suffering, with God searching for us in every darkest night.
Trust in his knowledge and faith that what will be done is what’s best is the only way to find peace. It’s never made any sense that we don’t know why we are here. To me, I’ve always felt a sense of trust in truth being here only not accepted or understood. If we are here. Directions is the logical thing that would come to us. And from God, not another Human.
The expereience of God isn’t fancy, it isn’t flamboyant, it isn’t here to coddle your ego, or give you want you want. The experience of JC comes when you’re fed up from the game & ready for truth. When you’re ready to confess you’re shortcomings, and ask for help. He comes then and slowly fills your heart releasing you of what stands between you & him.
Lifting the veil.
This is why I’m Christian. Im witchy or pagan because I will never forget the sacrifices the Goddess has made as well, still here, yet working from a far. I will always be balanced in my worship of both.
He comes first.
Sorry for the delay in posts! My conversion is really taking me through many Revelations with Jesus Christ.
My Lord & Savior, while that still sounds so strange coming from me, tho very real, has really been nudging me gently through my own personal death & ressurection so to speak. And before I continue my journey of sharing these experiences which I plan to I hopeto be as clear as possible as to not cause anymore confusion in others or cause any issues within another.
So I must work on my own personal soul work and as I become clearer you all will become the audience while reading my posts that I write.
I have many plans.
- One is to explain the pros and cons of Satanism from my perspective. As I will never condemned the paths I’ve taken as we all must learn their lessons no matter brutal.
- I plan to explain fallen angels, from a much larger perspective than I have, including the fae realm, demonic realm, distinguishing between angel and demons.
- I wish to explain spiritual warfare, the realness of it. Offer advice to anyone who is truly suffering from it.
As I’ve always faced spiritual warfare, I believe we all do whether we are consciousof it or not, no matter how we are looking at it. It’s the same. But coming from my perspective as I willingly walked into satanic thought & practices; I feel I was shown certain things that others would have been decieved about. Though that doesn’t say I wasn’t decieved at at all. Just in a different way.
Anyways, I would like to address my followers who supported me while walked a satanic path– Thank you for believing in me during the darkest times of my life! As I would still return the favor.
I would also like to tell everyone on other paths that I’ve aided spiritually, magickally, religiously whether from the light side or dark side–
This conversion doesn’t mean that I reject any of these other paths!
I will never say that these other paths don’t have some purpose for being here for us all to learn from. All of them have been, are, and were beneficial for me in different ways!
Jesus Christ, Lord & Savior does not send you to hell for your mistakes, darkness and/or sins! You do. My theories on what Hell/Underworld is will come also
Tolerance from humanity is crucial when faced with difference as well as discernment and vigilance.
Just because there is darkness and/or danger doesnt meant you need to run screaming Satan or fear it.
It means to test it.
Any type of darkness or demon whether an entity, energy, a wounded soul, an oppression, a conflict in life, addiction, obsession, whatever the darkness is in your life–
1) accept the presence of it in your life, face it. 2)Know there is a relationship between you & that darkness.It may be dark but if you let it, it will strengthen your vision to see the light. 3)Darkness will always be defeated with truth, faith, and patience.
Darkness, whether the enemy or obstacle requires us to be instilled with what it cannot inherently provide for itself.
The dark is here to teach lessons, regardless of how malvolant it believes itself to be.
If you fear it, they grow bigger.
So with that said, I will close this post by saying I look forward to sharing my twists & turns relating to my rebirth!
I do hope it will inspire others to think or rethink their own walk with God and/or themselves.
Saint Marie (Violet)
(The words of King Solomon)
|Wherefore I wished, and understanding was given me:
and I called upon God, and the Spirit of Wisdom came upon me:
and I preferred Her before kingdoms and thrones, and esteemed riches as nothing in comparison of Her. Neither did I compare unto Her any precious stone: for all gold in comparison of Her, is as a little sand, and silver in respect to Her shall be I loved Her above health and beauty, and chose to have Her instead of light: for Her light cannot be put out. Now all good things came to me together with Her, and innumerable riches through Her hands, and I rejoiced in all these: for this Wisdom went before me, and I knew not that She was the Mother of them all. Which I have learned without guile, and communicate without envy, and Her riches I hide not. For She is an infinite treasure to men, which they that use, become the friends of God, being commended for the gift of discipline. And God has given to me to speak as I would, and to conceive thoughts worthy of those things that are given me: because He is the guide of Wisdom, and the director of the wise: for in His hand are both we, and our words, and all Wisdom, and the knowledge and skill of works.
For He has given me the true knowledge of the things that are:
to know the disposition of the whole world, and the virtues of the elements,
the beginning, and ending, and midst of the times, the alterations of their courses,
and the changes of seasons, the revolutions of the year, and the dispositions of the stars,
the natures of living creatures, and rage of wild beasts, the force of winds, and reasonings of men,
the diversities of plants, and the virtues of roots, and all such things as are hid and not foreseen,
I have learned: for Wisdom, which is the worker of all things, taught me.For in Her is the Spirit of Understanding:
Holy, One, manifold, subtile, eloquent, active, undefiled, sure, sweet,
loving that which is good, quick, which nothing hinders, beneficent, gentle, kind, steadfast, assured,
secure, having all power, overseeing all things, and containing all spirits, intelligible, pure, subtile.
For Wisdom is more active than all active things: and reaches everywhere by reason of Her purity.
For She is a vapour of the power of God, and a certain pure emanation of the glory of the almighty God: and therefore no defiled thing comes into Her. For She is the brightness of eternal light, and the unspotted mirror of God’s majesty, and the image of his goodness. And being but One, She can do all things: and remaining in Herself the same, She renews all things, and through nations conveys Herself into holy souls, She makes the friends of God and prophets. For She is more beautiful than the sun, and above all the order of the stars:
being compared with the light, She is found before it. For after this comes night, but no evil can overcome Wisdom. She reaches therefore from end to end mightily, and orders all things sweetly.Her have I loved, and have sought Her out from my youth, and have desired to take Her for my spouse, and I became a lover of Her beauty. She glorifies Her nobility by being conversant with God: yes and the Lord of all things has loved Her.
For it is She that teaches the knowledge of God, and is the chooser of His works.
And if riches be desired in life, what is richer than Wisdom, which makes all things?
And if sense do work: who is a more artful worker than She of those things that are?
And if a man love justice: Her labours have great virtues; for She teaches temperance,
and prudence, justice, fortitude, which are such things as men can have nothing more profitable in life.How blessed is the man who finds Wisdom and the man who gains understanding.
For Her profit is better than the profit of silver and Her gain better than fine gold.
She is more precious than jewels; and nothing you desire compares with Her.
Long life is in Her right hand; in Her left hand are riches and honor.
Her ways are pleasant ways and all Her paths are peace.
She is a tree of life to those who take hold of Her, and happy are all who hold Her fast.
The Lord by Wisdom founded the earth, by Understanding He established the heavens.
By His knowledge the deeps were broken up and the skies drip with dew.My child, let them not vanish from your sight; keep sound wisdom and discretion,
So they will be life to your soul and adornment to your neck.
Then you will walk in your way securely and your foot will not stumble.
When you lie down, you will not be afraid; when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.
Do not be afraid of sudden fear nor of the onslaught of the wicked when it comes;
For the Lord will be your confidence and will keep your foot from being caught.
Acquire wisdom! Acquire understanding!
Do not forget nor turn away from the words of my mouth.
Do not forsake Her, and She will guard you; love Her, and She will watch over you.
The beginning of wisdom is: Acquire Wisdom; and with all your acquiring, get Understanding.
Does not Wisdom call, and understanding lift up Her voice?
Wisdom has built Her house,
To him who lacks understanding She says,
From Chapter 7 and 8 of the Wisdom of Solomon, [Apocrypha], and
Chapters 1, 3, 4, 8 and 9 of the Book of Proverbs, Old Testament, Holy Bible.