This post was called “My path as a Luciferian” prior to the changes that I am making now. Please read to learn about the changes!
First off, Satanism is a broad term. It can mean different things to different people. It even changes its shape & meaning for its “devotees”. Me, for example, Once I made my pact with Satan as a spirit of rebellion. A spirit that I wasn’t sure what to make of at the time which was in 2010….
It was as if I entered a gateway. But at the time felt & seemed like an actual solid entity or spirit or even a God. I didn’t define him however because my reason for the pact was to learn who he truly was instead of the scapegoat that much of humanity, particularly the ones with “power” to turn the old world into a new, made him into.
I needed to know the truth. I was tired of being lied to and told that he and all of his domain including paganism & the old Gods were nothing but evil & demons and for everyone to stay away from.
I felt this calling within me. And this calling was a call to search for truth! Truth of Satanism himself, of the world around me, & true nature in general.
From that pact I went through many twists & turns. I saw all of the illusion of Satan fall away & turn to dust before my eyes. I saw truths & illusions of myself. I saw darkness, I saw light. And the further I went the more this being began to change shape and change form into Lucifer.
It was then I thought, “am I even a Satanist anymore?”
Because the further I went, the more I got to know Lucifer as an Archangel of Venus & self-made God. I was then introduced to the Goddess Hekate. And when she came into my life things change even further! It is very hard to describe. But I then looked back at this Satanism path that I devoted myself to years prior & thought I wasn’t in the same place and probably couldn’t even call myself a Satanist any longer.
Particularly because of how eclectic I am!
Not only am I eclectic but I am also very inclined to have spiritual, mystical, and realm of the dead experiences. There aren’t many Satanists out there like me. Not to say none of you exist! However, because I believe many of us have these abilities within us! They just need to be seen, realized, accepted as they are.
Once we realize that we have been lied to a thousand times over by the people “in power”. Things because clearer!
Once my path & pact with Lucifer & Hekate became more grounded within who I was. I felt another shift. Mind you, I had no guides. Satanism, in my opinion, is supposed to have an element of mystery. There are elements of fear, there is no knight in shining armor coming to save you or to do anything to prove to you that you need to trust in the path. However that isn’t to say that Satan will not do things to help you assert yourself & to find faith within yourself. To see that within yourself you know what path you need to take even if you can’t see the big picture yet!
This next shift felt like it was another turning point but back to Satan! In a way it was pulling me back to where I started. And that didn’t make sense to me because I didn’t see Satan as the same being anymore. But I was still, nonetheless, urged to go back. To redefine this entity named SAtan, then some twists & turns happened in my material, mundane world, and BAM! There was Belial, standing there in front of me, reintroducing himself as kind of the same entity but complete. Solid. A manifestation. A guard. A protector.
I then felt like I needed to redefine the Satanic Bible, from a feminine perspective. Along with many other things as I cannot say that I am soley left hand path. I dont make a division such as that! Its against my very spirit to make such a distinction because in reality, left & right hand paths, the division doesn’t truly exist.
Change and evolution–I feel is the ultimate goal and truth in of the Universe.
I believe there is a reason for everything that is happening in our realm. And can be explained if one would just put their mind to it. I don’t think that this world is so damn mysterious as so many people pretend it is–simply because I feel that since we are here.
We must have had a choice in being born on some kind of level.
As a Satanist, the observation of animals is very important!
Animals & nature–they seem to live their lives in a very managed & content manner. They do not seem to be lost nor having an identity crisis like many humans are having. However there are those species whom enjoy mimicking and what not… but that isn’t the same–or perhaps it is… they simply know what they are doing.
As a Satanist I feel its important to know of our environment well–thereby observing the behavior of animals—Take Birds for example–they are managed well and work well with each other. They know what is expected of each other as if they have guidance–or perhaps they already know.
The Raven is the messenger–the watcher–the one whom lets the other Birds know about who is in the neighborhood–what tools are useable and nearby. They are the smartest birds in the community.
You never see Birds crying or bitching about their day. They sing their song–perfectly. Not to say there isn’t destruction among the bird community but it is done so in a different way.
They live their life with passion, inner guidance, confidence, and they do so until the day they die.
i am stating that our “reason” for being here should be as clear as it is to the animals whom do what they are meant to do effortlessly and without complaint.
I believe in a natural order & guidance in reality. This guidance comes in forms of animals, nature spirits,
Hecate, Lucifer, Satan, Belial–
I believe in individuality but it must be managed to never grow out of control or to an ideal that is not based in reality.
As we all aren’t THAT different from one another. I believe in freedom of thought… to a point however.
We all do not need to disregard whats going on in reality and chalk it up to unreal–for example the religious wars–
The answer isn’t to simply say–Religion isn’t real or its the problem–the answer is to see as it as a real influential power!
Another step is to see ourselves a very very humble beings…
Admit that you are lost & do not know why you are here!
Stop assuming and simply say to nature–I am here to serve you & myself.
Look up into the upper world-the heavens-repeat the same-also say the same to the below–the lower plane.
Assume that a free will and spirit that dwells within everything! This is much more productive than the opposite!
I call myself a Satanist because this is what Satan, Lucifer, Hekate, & Belial has taught me over the past 8 years!
For without the Gods—we wouldn’t beable to experience anything that we do.
This isn’t to say that the Gods have full & complete power. There is such a thing as Free will.
But the Gods mirror the effects from our choices–actions & thoughts back to us.
The Gods set the stage and give us a few options–we make the choice.
I don’t see the choices that we’ve made as anything that is bettering or evolving anything.
Animals could do much, much better!
We aren’t here to simply exist. We are here for a reason–for a purpose. But because we have shut our eyes and minds to many things–confusion has taken ahold.
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