Abuser (Poetry)


I look into your hand mirror. frozen stare as a tear fell from one, melting into my heart. Hell cries fo help. Biblically mistranslated.

Demons claw hungrily at my love which planted as seeds into soil outside your back door.

I embraced my own; you enslaved my pride. Activate illusion; transforming self vanity. My guilt freshing your vein by the old syringe. A gift given to me from an old enemy.

Medicinal poison flushing your system. Raped corruption. Cardiac arrested long ago. Now beating once again.

I worship the abuser. One whom defiles. The enemy.

Redefining Christian Witch-Not what u think!


What makes my path Christian? And What makes it Witchy or Pagan?

First & Foremost Jesus Christ is my Lord & Savior. He isn’t an ascended master as I’ve seen many Christian Witches believe him to be. The teachings of Christ are above & beyond all others. And these teachings speak to the individuals heart of all whom reach out for his guidance & light! In this way I worship no other God.

However I recognize The Trinity. I show respect towards Virgin Mary & the Goddess Hekate. (Which is where my witch roots come in)

In the past I was polytheistic, I can see that there is the influence from other so called deities or demons (daimons) however one would look at them. They have both good & bad attributes to them as I will discuss at a later time.

What is witchy about me? My respect towards Hekate. My respect towards the Underworld & magick. My respect towards those before me. My ancestors & the lives that were lost during religious wars. Particularly any women whether truly a witch or not.

The Goddess isnt forgotten. God wouldn’t and couldn’t.

But I understand why he did as he did when Jesus was born, crucified and ressurected. As I will deeply discuss my ideas at a later time.

Do I believe in astrology? I believe it’s both true and false. Do I believe it has more advantage than having a relationship with Christ? I believe that the spirits of the planets whom converse with humanity relating to Astrology can offer very flashy words and stroke the ego but the end result is the pushing of belief in evolution.

And I no longer see truth in evolution. If evolution was true then humanity would be much further in the evolutionary stages than we are. It’s illusion. To keep a false belief in some kind of race to an imaginary finish line that a human mind has made up.

Only God can decide evolution. What, where and how. Humanity can only chose to follow suit or rebel. Humanity cannot create a bladeof grass let alone be stable to make up evolutionary milestones. Lol

So, if astrology is working for you? Cool. But if it becomes repetitive & unfruitful? Rethink your source of information. Why bypass Christ whom is clear, grounded and without this mystical layer of magick all-over him as the others do because of the magick they are selling you–to listen to the voices of the planets whom give truthfully generalizations.

Humans, all of us, are much more similar than we tend to want to admit. Astrology is over the top when you can go straight to source, through JC.

Do I use tarot or oracle cards? I don’t use Tarot anymore, but I wi use some Oracle cards. I also trust the Akashic Tarot. The Akashic records told me one thing two years ago;Jesus Christ was to be accepted by all of humanity in order to gain soul regeneration. (So to speak)

I was told this before my conversion.

Some Oracle cards are actually fine but it depends on the type and where the information is coming from. And this isn’t okay with every person who considers themselves a Christian. Because it’s not for you.
At the same time, that doesn’t mean that oracle cards should be depended on for truth but to put something or someone to the test.

There is no higher way to find truth than to ask Christ. The only way cards & all witchcraft,new age supplies can cause issues is if you fear them, which means you believe in them.

Demons and spirits can influence you with and without these “doorways” in your home.

And depends on your mind, the spirits or demons, the reasons for the haunting, and method of oppression.

Temptation comes in all shapes and sizes. Not just these shapes.

Just because I converted & saw truth doesn’t mean I won’t ever be effected by darkness again or make bad decisions.

Remember this is an already. Darkness will remain. But asking Him to shine the light will begin true change within oneself.

Will I ever speak to passed on loved ones? Depends on the situation and person. Cast spells? Not anymore. Channeling? Not purposefully.

I suppose the way the witch part still applies is that I am not running from the demons, spirits or passed on loved ones. I have seen too much. I know that there is danger, corruption, and what not within these things. But it doesn’t mean there isn’t a reason for the situation.

Im not completely renouncing my practices before my conversion. I may be putting down certain things & I have dropped my dependence on certain practices to do what JC can do.

But I AM completely renouncing my satanic practices & I am letting go of Satan, Lucifer as a main deity that I follow as I was before.
However that doesn’t mean I don’t understand his role in this life for both better & worse. He truly does teach the knowldge of good & evil. Which is the same as seeing our difficult times as dark gifts once we rise above them.

Satan & Sin doesn’t need to be hated. That is a trap. It needs to be seen through, understood, and accepted as a part of darkness. But also a partof darkness that always has the opportunity to be forgiven or redeemed when sincerely sought after.

Human anger & hate never amounts to anything. We should never take it upon ourselves to believe that we understand something to it’s fullest amount that hatred from our hearts is what’s warranted. I’ve never seen hatred nor anger amount to anything for me. And I’ve explored many things. Yes I still feel it. But it’s not my responsibility to keep it with me. It’s a tool to use to protect me if needed. But held on for longer than a few moments it becomes a weapon.

I’ve always found that even in the darkest of situations, how it unfolds depends largely on how you interact with the situation itself. Life for everyone is complicated, full of darkness and suffering, with God searching for us in every darkest night.

Trust in his knowledge and faith that what will be done is what’s best is the only way to find peace. It’s never made any sense that we don’t know why we are here. To me, I’ve always felt a sense of trust in truth being here only not accepted or understood. If we are here. Directions is the logical thing that would come to us. And from God, not another Human.

The expereience of God isn’t fancy, it isn’t flamboyant, it isn’t here to coddle your ego, or give you want you want. The experience of JC comes when you’re fed up from the game & ready for truth. When you’re ready to confess you’re shortcomings, and ask for help. He comes then and slowly fills your heart releasing you of what stands between you & him.

Lifting the veil.

This is why I’m Christian. Im witchy or pagan because I will never forget the sacrifices the Goddess has made as well, still here, yet working from a far. I will always be balanced in my worship of both.

He comes first.

Violet

Update-Rebirth


Sorry for the delay in posts! My conversion is really taking me through many Revelations with Jesus Christ.

My Lord & Savior, while that still sounds so strange coming from me, tho very real, has really been nudging me gently through my own personal death & ressurection so to speak. And before I continue my journey of sharing these experiences which I plan to I hopeto be as clear as possible as to not cause anymore confusion in others or cause any issues within another.

So I must work on my own personal soul work and as I become clearer you all will become the audience while reading my posts that I write.

I have many plans.

  1. One is to explain the pros and cons of Satanism from my perspective. As I will never condemned the paths I’ve taken as we all must learn their lessons no matter brutal.
  2. I plan to explain fallen angels, from a much larger perspective than I have, including the fae realm, demonic realm, distinguishing between angel and demons.
  3. I wish to explain spiritual warfare, the realness of it. Offer advice to anyone who is truly suffering from it.

As I’ve always faced spiritual warfare, I believe we all do whether we are consciousof it or not, no matter how we are looking at it. It’s the same. But coming from my perspective as I willingly walked into satanic thought & practices; I feel I was shown certain things that others would have been decieved about. Though that doesn’t say I wasn’t decieved at at all. Just in a different way.

Anyways, I would like to address my followers who supported me while walked a satanic path– Thank you for believing in me during the darkest times of my life! As I would still return the favor.

I would also like to tell everyone on other paths that I’ve aided spiritually, magickally, religiously whether from the light side or dark side–

This conversion doesn’t mean that I reject any of these other paths!

I will never say that these other paths don’t have some purpose for being here for us all to learn from. All of them have been, are, and were beneficial for me in different ways!

Jesus Christ, Lord & Savior does not send you to hell for your mistakes, darkness and/or sins! You do. My theories on what Hell/Underworld is will come also

Tolerance from humanity is crucial when faced with difference as well as discernment and vigilance.

Just because there is darkness and/or danger doesnt meant you need to run screaming Satan or fear it.

It means to test it.

Any type of darkness or demon whether an entity, energy, a wounded soul, an oppression, a conflict in life, addiction, obsession, whatever the darkness is in your life–

1) accept the presence of it in your life, face it. 2)Know there is a relationship between you & that darkness.It may be dark but if you let it, it will strengthen your vision to see the light. 3)Darkness will always be defeated with truth, faith, and patience.

Darkness, whether the enemy or obstacle requires us to be instilled with what it cannot inherently provide for itself.

The dark is here to teach lessons, regardless of how malvolant it believes itself to be.

If you fear it, they grow bigger.

So with that said, I will close this post by saying I look forward to sharing my twists & turns relating to my rebirth!

I do hope it will inspire others to think or rethink their own walk with God and/or themselves.

Saint Marie (Violet)

My recent Hospital Stay


I posted a few updates about my hospital stay & health concerns so I am going to publish them here to let all of my followers know whats up. I am in some bad shape and I’m asking for assistance of any kind. I am even offering my services in hopes to receive donations to stay alive. 

Here is my paypal if youre willing to donate after reading the statements below! 

https://www.paypal.me/Lightworking

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Mercury In Retrograde (July 2018)


6b210246f2d26a88483eff791a79c099.png I will say this as many times as it takes for people to catch on! What the majority of you are spreading about Mercury Retrograde is half true! I am not here to chastise anyone. But seriously its time to open your minds to evolution on many things but particularly this topic because after all the domain of Mercury is the MIND!! 

If you are going to chose to believe in Astrology then you need to take a look at Mythology. Read up on Hermes. What he was, what did he do? He was a messenger of the Gods. Bringing messages to humanity from the Gods aka the other planets! This is crucial in understanding Mercury! Whether you are a planetary magician, or an astrologer or just someone who follows it! This is seriously something that you need to understand!

Mercury being a messenger first & foremost then comes the fact that this planet is what enables us all to comprehend anything. Name it! Anything. He or seen as Hermes, Thoth, etc, he brought to us the alphabet, numerology, even astrology, magick etc. This means that everything you can learn from or any channel you use to understand something with. He made it possible for you to do. Think, speak… manifestation of the mind. ETC. Mercury. 

Next comes the fact that Mercury is a trickster spirit. This means that not all that you comprehend is to be true. He is pointing to the fact that you need to take responsibility in how you chose to perceive! That many times we are wrong, but only to enable us to find the correct way, correct answer, and so on! This enables evolution. 

Taking all of this into consideration, his domain is something that he brings to you but is filtered by the domains of all the other planets that are following him. So wherever the others are? Those domains being effects by whatever sign the planet is? That directs where Mercury will be whether direct or retrograde! So everything that you believe to go wrong during retrograde isn’t solely the fault of Mercury. The so called “fault” is of the other planets but also a percentage of that goes to how you PERCEIVE everything!

Mercury is asking you to pay attention! Those things that go wrong? Also go wrong with he is direct! Direct or retrograde isn’t the point!! Pay attention, again!! 

Mercury is only the messenger, why blame the messenger? The fact that you can comprehend at all is given by him but  what you can understand was approved by the others! 

Also keep in mind that RETROGRADE is illusion! This is the trickster part! This means that anything that happens while Mercury is in retrograde is illusion. It is HOW we are perceiving it that matters & is what will be formed into manifestation! 

How you will experience the effect of the retrograde depends upon the sign the retrograde is in. While the illusion is altogether false, there is a sense of introversion of energy. But it doesn’t mean that you don’t receive the usual energy of this domain, it means that things may happen (according to your own comprehension level, until you chose otherwise) that will urge you to follow suit. Meaning that you will be forced to invert your attention.

LOOK WITHIN!!! Look to yourself! Figure out to manifest the energy you wish to receive or to throw out into the cosmos, tho tread lightly, in order to see the results you are looking for!

Mercury is the magician! He teaches us to cause change according to OUR OWN WILL!! 

This is HIS/HER domain!! 

Cursing & Healing


There are many things that I would say MOST people need to understand about cursing, particularly those of a right hand path. (remember I am of both right & left yet I am of neither.) But for starters, one must truly understand what positive & negative are. Because honestly? Most of us don’t even know what that is! You don’t even have to be brought up as Christian to be confused about this! Because this is something that is corrupted in our society as it is without the obvious influence of Christianity. However I am certain that is where it stemmed from. 

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Hekatean Satanic (Bible)


 

A work in progress! This is going to be the first book I ever get published! It is mainly centered around my path as a Hekatean Satanist & how others may become on or relate to as if they are already! (rough draft)

I am moving the project here in my portfolio & will reveal it as its finished! You may find the front page here

 

 

More to come! 


Under-Construction